250` Only Almost Here.

im feeling: indescribable
song of the moment: 王力宏- 你不在

CHANGE.
change can be a good thing, or it can be bad. some people change for better, and some for worse. when a person changes, the way he thinks, the things he does, all changes. minimally or significantly; knowingly or unknowingly. and people around him may or may not welcome the change. we don't know for sure. anyway, how often can we exactly point to a time when we tell ourselves: "he's changed." or "thats when things changed."
some people like change, while some people hate it. some take to changes very well, yet others dont. what do we all know? things change, nature changes, tastes change, people change, relationships change, fashion changes, exchange rates change, education changes, values change, principles change, views change; everything changes. whats forever? who are we to know? what do we all know? i ask again.. nothing lasts forever. just remember, everything ends. every single day things around us change. have you changed? do you know you changed? or will you be the one who stays unchanged even when everything around you is changing? things that seemed so important to you in the past no longer seem that important. certain things, certain people, certain feelings, certain memories... things you didnt mind in the past now bother you a lot. what can we say of this? now you dont put in as much effort, you dont put in your heart and soul, you dont bother or care enough. was it you or was it me. i didnt, did you? i dont know..

take it between a couple. one is changing (presumably climbing up, becoming better), yet the other stays the same. would they last? no, would they even make it? suddenly, one is starting to mind or pick on some things about the other. and when you start picking on one, you'd continue picking on a lot more. the originally simple equation between the two of them has evolved, because change was added in. now the equation cannot be balanced, because it is unequal now. so what now? continue standing on unequal grounds? or split up and find other better partners that match to your new heightened standards? hmmm, that's not up to me to say..

or try another scenario whereby we suddenly find that things just changed completely overnight. what do you do when someone you thought wouldn't change changed? people always disappoint. they really disappoint. and in the end, you will learn that the only people you can ever have is yourself. but sometimes, despite that, we disappoint ourselves too. then what now?




飞轮海- 寂寞暴走

作曲:杨子朴
作词:严云农
编曲:郭伟聪


这里的景色叫做曾经爱过
曾存在你的拥抱和温柔
撕开票根独自重游
票价是想念你的痛

你说做朋友并不是朋友
我们比路人还陌生得多
感情的废墟重建以後
谁会偶尔回来走走

我站在回忆的入口
搜集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中 你从没走

我说的爱你说的太自由
自由到彷佛我只是说说
未来的风景我没爱过
我只想念你的所有　　

我的爱你想你都以极速向回忆暴冲
他们能看见的是虚伪的从容
latest addition to my collection of favourite (emo) songs. put on repeat mode on my iTunes. and the lyrics just keep poofing out of nowhere in my head.


郭妹妹- 放了爱
(一切完美 OST)


你指向远方爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光钻进你胸膛
但那不是感动是泪无法储藏
把美梦锁上以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你肩膀

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我该怎麼生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗
你越温柔我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿
心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁
加满自由我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我该怎麼生活
放了爱 会明白
有种拥有 叫作放手

我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白
有种拥有 叫作放手
放了爱 我放了爱