224`first paper. and stufx

i got screwed. by the PDWM paper. double shucks, HA-HA! but okay, at least the some studying i did this morning was of use. thank goodness. but its only workable when my paper is in the afternoon. cause i really Hate ppl discussing the thingies right before the paper. i so dont like to touch the stufx on the day of my exam at all. weird? maybe. hurr, but seriously. i. dont. like. it. LOL. well anyway, one down. four more to go.

on a totally different note. i wanna eat the chilli barbequed pork slices (ba kua). oh man, somebody order it for me. give those to me, prettily pls? i will love you...... for now. muahahahahah!
yeah, tmr is novel reading time again. yes, i love it. plus did i already mention that i love it when i have the whole entire house to myself. =]
and okay, i will TRY to sleep earlier. i will try. i said try. crosses fingers and.. pray? or cross my heart and hope to die? okay whatever, i will try luh.
and yes, i need a lifelong supply of LOLLIPOPS! i want manymanymanymany containers stuffed full with lollis. i will be darned happy i tell you. lol

i didnt even think about you, and thats when i finally realised i'd be okay WITHOUT you.

223`because of you.

because of you i never stray too far from the sidewalk. because of you i learnt to play on the safe side so i dont get hurt. because of you i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me. because of you i dont know how to love any one else. because of you i am afraid. because of you i try my hardest to forget everything. because of you....

my heart cant possibly break when it wasnt even whole to start with.

and every single little thing is all because of you.

-lyrics from Kelly Clarkson's Because of You.-

222`i so wanna pick you out from my memories and have a go at real.



221`DEATHNOTE- L.

L is just DARNED SUPER CUTE can?!! awwww...

220`

ohh yes. i forgot to say. that my family- 3down. lmao, as in sick. my dad, my mum and myself. hurr. see? but well, i think im almost alright now.

i dont know what else to say. lol.

better really go get some reading done for PDWM. the exam is like on Wed. and here i am still slacking my time away idling like no ones biz. and plus i haven really read up yet. shucks.

219/1`missy higgins- The Sound of White

same song as the previous video. but this is from Pirates. and Johnny Depp is so so so haut!

219`missy higgins- Sound of White


218`sick sick sick. shit sick.

awww man. i think there is a serious problem with my head. apart from the chronic headaches all these years, now it sets me like a zombie. really! for the whole month or longer, i've been quite trance-like luhh. HELLO, mr Brain, wake up pls. i'm having my end-of-year examinations like darned soon. i cant afford to be zombified for the exams can i?

sick for i dont know how long already. shucks can. so okayyy- i know i'd never fail to be sick after i walk in the rain. and i know too, that i ALWAYS fall sick during examination periods. urghh, i can just drop unconscious right this moment. my whole body is soooo extremely lethargic. i feel like im in a thousand year old body, so much so that just any single small movement uses up all the energy i have within me. everything takes so much effort that i simply dont do anything at all. im that tired, but its not a lack of sleep. rather its a lack of energy.. like my body doesnt have any reserves in it to support the life.
right, wtheck am i talking about?!!

okok, i digress.
tues23jan07- UCCD test. it was one of a killer test. i just cross my fingers and pray hard enough that i dont screw up. and hope for a pass. then i'd be contented already.. breakfast-ed with shikai sal weixin desmond. and then went to Westmall study with jaren. yaa, 'study'. hurr. more like chilling out session eh partner? lmao! nvm, all for the excuse of drinking CoffeeBean. its worth;)

i need to study! im so dead. so so deadpls. shiats really.

i dont rmb sending Mr Goh (ECM tutor) my grp's ECM report and ppt. i'll be damned then. and GEMS report is being extended by a week. yet i haven even gotten any substantial stufx down. ppt is just this fri. and i haven done a single thing bout that yet either. FM revision class tmr. then next week is the first upcoming Exam. i haven started studying for ANYTHING yet. not any module; not a tiny winy fracture of something, just plain nothing. freak, im just about so freaked.


217`quizzes are my fave past-times. LOL

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true. Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than you realize. For you, falling in love has never been easy. You can only fall for someone who is very patient and persistent.

You Should Be An Aquarius

What's good about you: philosophical and idealistic, you are a great thinker What's bad about you: you require a lot of space - it's hard to get close to you In love: you're quirky and playful, but you hate to be smothered In friendship, you're: likely to have many acquaintances and very few good friends Your ideal job: pilot, snow boarder, or science fiction writer Your sense of fashion: unconventional, unique outfits that turn heads You like to pig out on: anything with garlic or unique spices

[i am an Aquarius already. hehheh=p]

You Are More Yin

FeminineDevotedForgivingFallWinterAfternoonMoonTimePassiveMetalHoney

[yin yes, fall yes, winter yes, moon yes]

Your Attitude is Better than 50% of the Population

You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

You Are 76% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!

You Are 70% Peaceful

You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on.Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat.Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 80%

Gluttony: 40%

Envy: 20%

Pride: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 26%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

[HA-HA-HA! like i LMAO pls]

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

yup, thats all.. for now. HURR! cause the net's still having some problems. and blogthings take forever to load. enjoy!

214/3`more to come

love fruits!
nothing beats COFFEE(BEAN).

the night the rain went pouring...
i love my hair!
cutesy cardo(s).

the flower balloon.

214/2`disrupted continuation.





my fave-est number.















these are wayyy overdue pics. which i were too lazy to upload then. HA-HA! dating back from 31dec06. at The Ship Restaurant, and Westmall. and then to 3jan07. at yuki yaki, marina square. and my beloved shipment of my iPod mini, plus my christmas pressie of L!=))

216`randoms

sometimes, some things, just dont.. change.
like i rmb how we used to be. those times. those memories. memories of us. once been. every little thing. the songs, the places, the times, the actions, the words, the eyestares, the gestures, the feelings, the moments. you wont see any traces of these on my face nor in my eyes. but sometimes, when i act like i dont bother. maybe its only because i care too much.
like when im on the train, at the coffee houses, at the movies, at some shopping mall, at the waters, at my songs. maybe you never really did leave. and i do think you do sneak attacks damn more frequent than others, or should i say you're the only one who gets to me like you do.

-and i must get the LEVIS/ADIDAS jacket like soon(!!) i must get my hands on it! and i ought to get a pouch or whatever for my iPod mini.
-pray for the rain tmr. then maybe i will be good and go flip my UCCD text. maybe.
-i just saw valerie's blog. and i saw her site of 'goods to be sold'. funny, i was just talking about this topic like just now. and i saw some pretty nice bags which i sooo Want! oh man, valerie pls reserve those for me. LOL. (did i tell you im a sucker for bags. of all kinds.? HA-HA!)
-i haven had my share of retail therapy yet. not from the holidays till now. so im super itching to go blast shopping:(
-my dear N7610 has been with me through ALL ups and downs; highs and lows; crazied and subdued; wild and quiet; loved and disliked; awake and asleep moments. for 1yr and 9months, and counting. and im still lurving it. theres no way i would bear to part with it. its my best companion for all time. <3

oookay, i officially announce: 'its this cursed headache making me blabber weird stufx.' i feel like im in a trance-.-


215`killer headache

i had wanted to blog, i had the substance, the words. but it seems always that when i actually get down on blogging, the words give me the slip. they vanished into nothingness. just like how i feel.
maybe.
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UCCD test is on frigging tues already. i haven studied. shiats pls. nobody to study. wtheck, tmr would most likely be slacking unproductively. and not to say thanks to my sickness. this is grrrreat.
-correction- okay, no. i WANT to slack endlessly. but fact is, i CANT AFFORD to. grrrr. like i really would give a damn.

im bored to stiff with my songs. almost. urgh, i need some new new new nice nice nice songs. hello, ares programme pls. LMAO! maybe im feeling all pissy because of my relentless headache. sucks to be me in this sense. HA-HA!
and i keep knocking myself like idk when/whr. all i know is my knee is full of bruises. and my elbow is the worst victim as always. hurhur, elbow guard already!

urgh, can i have somebody be superbly kind and nice to me. send me songs, help me download songs. whatever shiat. lmao! okay, nvm. just send me the ares thingy. and i wont ask for more.

twenty five mins by MLTR. somehow or rather. this song keeps replaying in my mind when i walk home late at nights. like those i previously mentioned. zui jing, feng, shan hu hai, blarh. yes, im cranky.

whoa, everyone is earning big bucks(?) by selling their stufx on blogs. like i wanna sellsellsell! tonnes of unused/unwanted/good condition stufx. maybe i should get a site to sell too! hurr. i'd earn lotsa money for more shoppingshoppingshopping!!

*end note* i pray for the whole entire house to myself tmr. like pretty pls!

214/1`



a song to the sun.





GOLDEN FAITH- my MR. (GALLEN) LUO!!





214`long overdue pictures

LOVE for COFFEE<3 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger/861/2306/1600/920567/Image(2426).jpg">

it was raining heavily. can you see the glistened parapet?

213`over the week

time for an update.
but im lazy to type.
im tired, im shit sick.
im pissed, im down.

whatever, update at a later time.
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okay, real update now. (the above was an overdue draft)

wed. ECM ppt, oh wells. whatever la, whats over isnt worth saying anything. and i digress. caught DEATHNOTE 2: THE LAST NAME with desmond over at Westmall. hurhur. what else can i say except the fact that L is darned CUTE! cute without even trying at all. awwwww, L.. and thanks des.

thurs. was a COMPLETE waste of time going to school seriously. i went specially for GEMS discussion, but in the end all baited out. wtheck. anyway, again. its over. so i'd just clamp up.

fri. super sick, headache and i dont have the energy to get up. had to rush GEMS project. skipped GEMS. but had to go meet jaren to study. and that girl suggested Hougang. LMAO! you good huh girl. anyway, really cant take it and went to Hougang Polyclinic to see a doc and get a MC. it was the 2nd time in my life that Yours Truly ever stepped into a Polyclinic. LOL! okay, i know, im erhh, what? unbelievable? HA-HA! then after that we settled at Mac to study. like i was studying anyway. didnt get anything into my head because of that unrelenting headache. like shucks that i have chronic headache pls. anyway, there we saw a 'film' rolling. (which made us think 'what on earth happened to the kids nowadays? they ought to get a life, and quit being so childish.') partner, you'd know what im talking about right. so, wound up and had dinner at near 8pm. super nice dinner really. herbal chicken soup/steamboat. heavenly man! plus izzit XO? hurrr, darned nice. (but on the MRT ride home then i thought, hell im sick and aint i supposed not to touch alcohol? and thats like XO?!!) but heck anyway, i wont give that a miss. like i even bothered about being sick anyway. i hide my sickness well away from the eyes of ppl. cause i have all my masks. okay dont mind that crap.
and great thankies to my partner! and your bf. for walking me to the mrt station, and you for waiting for me at the polyclinic and at SP. =))

sat. which is today, or maybe not. my headache still isnt leaving me alone. and again i cant get out of bed. so i half slept half read my novel until like 3++pm. and my mum nagged at me repeatedly to get up. even till now, literally, im still like half-drugged. wthell, izzit that med the doc gave me? can it be that strong? maybe.

so to end it, partner lets like go study on monday? pls drag me outta my home and force me to study. hurhur. and lets find all those real cool chillout/studying places. tata~

212`movies

caught Confession of Pain during the last week of my holidays. it starred Tony Leung and Takashi Kaneshirou, Shu Qi. not all that nice. i thought it was like, it didnt require much acting on the part of Tony. which was such as waste. i watched it because of him! lol. anyway, but i think its rare that we see him act as a baddie. you see, even in Infernal Affairs, he was an undercover cop. so its not exactly bad. in here, hmm, he is bad. but well, its cause he wanted to exact revenge on those who killed his whole family. and he died in the end. awwww...

watched One Last Dance last friday. starring Francis Ng, Ti Leung, Vivian Hsu. again, it wasnt quite good. Francis' acting was rather stoned i think. and this show didnt require much acting skills also. haha. the sequence of the whole show was also a bit confusing. i mean, i understand they are doing a flashback kinda thingy. and they want us to do a bit of thinking/deciphering maybe. but in the end the whole effect was that most of us were confused. okay, maybe cause we missed the starting. so we have no idea wthell was TarTar? lols. yea, this show has Singaporean actors, and its fully filmed locally. ooh, the S'porean actors spoke Cantonese as well you know. but still, its dubbed into Chinese. the storyline is quite like duhh also. the killer (Francis) goes on a killing spree just because those ppl killed and raped the woman he liked (Vivian). and it really has quite many vulgarities spilled. but i dont think that was really necessary on the whole.

watched Mob Sister last sat night. it wasnt too bad. hahaha. Simon Yam, Anthony Wong, Alex Fong, Eric Tseng(?), Karen Lin. gang clashings, internal fights. always the case. when they are not fighting against enemies, they are fighting internally. hurr, sad but pathetic truth. LMAO.

what's happened to Hong Kong's movie industry? seems like the quality of its films are dropping in standard. wheres my gangster/mafia/mob/bloody/fightings genres of movies? and i still think that the only ones who can really act are the older batch like Simon Yam, Tony Leung, Anthony Wong, Ekin Cheng, Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, Nick Cheung, Gallen Luo! all those ppl. no one else has the charisma to command the attention of the entire audience. and give life to the show or the character. seriously, HK movie is dying? hell, no pls. i cant survive with my doses of HK films. HA-HA!

and i haven watched DEATHNOTE 2: THE LAST NAME yet(!!!) shiats, pls. dont close screening yet. not just yet.

211`overdue draft.

i cried my eyes dry. i stopped hurting. i cant feel pain. i dont feel sadness. but.. do not stand at my grave and cry, i did not die.
when all is said and done; when it melts to nothingness, what remains.
the reason why i like walking in the rain is because there would not be any difference between the droplets of rain and my drops of tears. and its not only my tears streaking down my face.

serves me right for being Sick for idk how long. cause thats what i get for walking in the rain for near an hour late at night, soaking myself wet. -a more than bad flu.

maybe i have to go see the doc later on to get an MC to cover my 'leave' today. hurhur, last wed i absented myself without the doc's MC cause of the flu and fever as well. and needless to say, my attendance doesnt look all that glamourous either. i LMAO! but being me, i hate going to the docs. dislike swallowing med. and wasting my money. hurhur. in return for an MC. shiats. okay, we'll see how later on.
i still have to do my ECM ppt and compile everything. and maybe read my book=)

i dont have a decent lunch and/or dinner for ydae and today. like wtheck. somebody stock up my house pretty pls. wheres my APPLES? TOMATOES? so now im surviving my lunch on sausages (which are darned Salty i tell you. i can die of what, over-saltiness or something?) and cereal. hungry, and the weathers so super HOT! urgh, i dislike the sun. hail rain pls. and i mean the weather element raindrops. muahahaha.

210`of the words i couldnt say

barely scrapping by. the sky was a brilliant orange. and an azure blue. then it became overcast with grey clouds hovering gingerly above. what weathers i love most? overcast skies, windy breezes, rustlings of leaves, dewy mornings, rainy grounds, soft drizzles, crispness of the rain; i love EVERYTHING about the rain.
of all the phrases and words in the world. i loved this the most.
gallen luo. golden faith. whoever finds the ost of golden faith. i love you to death really.
was it because im not feeling too well, thats why my resistance dropped, and you crept into my dreams? the distant memories lingering hidden at a nearby distance always. you remind me of a song i used to love.

i guess the sickness got to my head, thats why now im talking incoherently.


209`start of school

wassup. today is the first day of school reopen, term4. hoho, time flies huh? back to school, back to drama (i sure hope NOT), back to work, back to projects. today was passable, and i borrowed more books back! ahaa, have some things to do already.

having an iPod is a liability for me la seriously. apart from holding my phone i still have to hold the iPod. maybe im not used to it yet. we'll see then. haah, anyway im pretty okay without music during journeys actually. cause going to school is a rush, i'll msg someone(s) or whatever; then back home i'll have jasin and sometimes zhong wei they'all for company. so i dont really need the extras. its only during exam periods. when i revise, or i rephrase: IF i actually read up. yar, i can die without my songs during that period, so i welcome my MP3. hurhur, see how it goes for now.

you used to look at me like im the only one. i used to look at you like you're the one. we used to be together as one. now we see each other almost as though you're just an individual one.

208`iPod!

oh yea, bro ordered my iPod mini and his bag online just only on tues. and wed night we got the stufx already. yeahness!! so tmr will be spent personalizing my beloved iPod=)) charging it now, but im tired already. so leave it to tmr. hehheh. music is love<3

class outing wed. hurr, as expected, soo few ppl came. but what else can we expect right. i've prepared for the worst. ahahaha, didnt actually wanna go. but oh wells, lets just say it ended all right still? everyone had laughter, fun, and food. thanks to all those who came for it anyway.
all 3 guys who were pressent were lousy to the core. like i LMAO. they ate sososososo little. omsohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and desmond, thanks so much for your Christmas pressie. 'L' is my rave.

chong lee, soo sorry guy. i still haven gone through your speech. teehee` now time. lols, tmr okay? ahahahah. tmr then i send you.

alrightey- sleeping time soon.

207/10.1`STAY- ni wo shi sha gua; Princess Hours ost


207/9.2`HOWL- too close; Princess Hours ost


207/9.1`HOWL- too close; Princess Hours ost


207/8`LEE SHENG JIE- zui jing


207/7`GALLEN LUO- dang ai qing zou dao jin tou; Golden Faith ost


207/6`JAY- ge qian


207/5`JAY- yi lu xiang bei


207/4`JAY- hui dao guo qu


207/3`JAY- ni ting de dao


207/2`JAY-shan hu hai


207/1`JAY- feng


207`sad songs

first entry of the year. maybe i'll make multiple entries here tonight.

some songs, no matter how many times i've listened to them, they still make me cry. wanna make a guess? most of it are JAY's songs. not that im sad or anything like that, but they really never fail to shake me up or stir that little something right deep down inside. its the melancholic melody, the super meaningful lyrics, the way he sings the songs, the entire thing. maybe? no, must be. and of course not forgetting my MR. (GALLEN) LUO.

i wanna put up the lyrics but im afraid they would most likely come out as trash in some arabian language. hurr, so forget it. dont insult my jay like this. i LMAO!

so i think perhaps tonight will be another sleepless night.

ohhh im so clever, i thought of an idea. i'd post the MVs of those songs up here. thats like the best- you can hear him sing, watch the nice mvs, follow the lyrics, listen to the melody. perfect!