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148`all DRAMA uncalled for

seems like high time i should update my blog already, so here i am. but with nothing much i think i can say. idk why too. HAA, anyway here goes:

wed27sept- i skipped school. cause i woke up at like 9.40am. when my lesson starts at 8AM! freak, im shucked luh can. lmao, wasted one tutorial attendance for ECM.

thurs28sept- ermm. cant really rmb. but if memory serves me correctly, i skipped the first lecture. which equals-- i haven seen Ben Cho for FM lectures yet. hurr, so greats right. oh yar, sold my MR textbook to prisca already. 20bucks to spare. hehx=) then it was tutorial. in which we took blurdy 20mins to form a group for TEP. DAMNED FREAKING 'GREAT' or what?!! im seriously pissed. this whole group forming SHIAT is pissing me a great deal off i tell you. and dont mind me if my language is less-than-gracious when talking abt this pathetic trouble. i dont understand if they are merely immature or what. GRRRRRRR, just the thought of it all makes my blood boil. bitch and whine; pick and choose, whats their problem really. cant compromise with one another then thats your frigging biz. and dont blurdy hell say we draw lots when in the end what you do is CHEAT by exchanging members. wtf? might as well just choose your members like that right? darned. and i shallnt even state who the trouble was with, cause there were a few. but its not as if those who actually were the ones knew they were. and go ard prissing their high arses pointing fingers at others. HELLO DRAMA, i knew you'd be back to visit. and perhaps here to stay huh? see, i said previously: 'back to school; back to drama'. much more than darned true right? and seriously i can tell you outright. i dont freaking give a damn what you think about me, cause it wont be half as good as what i think about you. and yes, SNORTS. im nowhere near jealousy; im just APPALLED. you mark my words.

fri29sept- okay, i sidetracked for that one. anyway its Pearl's bdae. great 18th huh girl.=) went in half an hour late for TEP lecture. then HRM tutorial. the same old drama of group forming. which i tell you, went on for ONE WHOLE hour! im super effing pissed i can say. the same shit i said above. i can burst out the next time it happens luh. come on, it isnt Glamourous for goodness sake!! think what kind of a first impression we gave our poor lecturer. as if that dirty thing wasnt shameful. HA-HA. anyway, enough of that shiat. GEMS later on. the lecturer is lame. haha. guess this gems would be fun. cause the students seem to be not too bad either. oh yeah, got M&M chocs from the lecturer. lol, cause we played the ice-breaking game. a haa! then its home sweet home.

sat30sept- i dont have to work this weekend. heh, nice break. lols. so this whole day today i slacked in front of my dear comp watching LUO JIA LIANG. he's my hunnie attraction! lol. even mummy says he is SHUAI okay! dont play play ahh. muahahahahhahas. im super smug now.

and dad asked me to go out for lunch with them tmr. and maybe i go buy that duffel bag i saw at Kappa. not too bad. ahaha and maybe also buy that Puma sling bag. hoho see how it goes.

147`pics

got nothing much to say actually. just upload the TCC pics of ydae. cause i forgot to mention our mini outing ydae to orchard.

tmr's lesson starts frigging at 8AM! and guess what? i have a so very familiar premonition i'll be L.A.T.E. Ahaa! =)

146`hello drama

so, lets go by chronological order shall we?
sat-work
sun-work. but its interesting though. cause a BIG monitor lizard decided it should come out to showcast itself. HA-HA! super funny i tell you. lmao really. damn B.I.G. walking around ambly like a baby croc. too bad i didnt get to shoot it down. the tail curls even. how cool.

today-first day of school. and as my title defines: HELLO DRAMA. (im being OH SO SARCASTIC here) but thats true. 'back to school; back to drama'. part of me wishes we've had long long long holidays or we dont have to go back to school. cause i can do so much better without all the drama and stufx. sigh, okay i dont know what im talking about seriously. i just think im falling back. to the old me. okay, perhaps its not i think; but more of I KNOW. but somehow, i actually LOVE that old me better. cause at least i dont have to think ways to make myself speak so much. quiet and distant. i like that peaceful feeling more. hurhur, now am i just saddistic or what? but if i say fall back to my old ways means those VERY NOT GOOD things. what it exactly is, you dont have to know. just hope i wont slip back to those, just the melancholic girl maybe. BUT i already DID those things just now. HUR. silly as it is to dance in the rain; these are the little things that take away my pain. so does putting FENG/SHAN HU HAI on repeat mode for god knows how many thousand times. false fronts and all, haven that all been part of me?

enough of these idk how to put it across thingies anyway. lets just end here.

145`strawberry cigarette

oh shucks pls. can somebody really go tell that dad of mine to ABSOLUTELY STOP SMOKING THE STRAWBERRY CIGGIE LIKE RIGHT NOW?!! im effing pissed cause it gives me a damn shit headache from the very first puff that got out of his mouth. this isnt nice i tell you. the smell is so darned overwhelming that my head is swimming/pounding. okay, a combi of both. urgh! i can die of the smell already. damn shiat. i love MARLBORO, the smell. but it'd be good if he doesnt smoke. if those ppl whom i know DONT smoke. but guess thats not possible. HA-HA

144`that much i have to say

so i didnt go out today. cause i procrastinated like crazy. heh=} read my novel plus vcd-ing. seriously i just dont like heaving my butt out of the house, into places whr they are Crowds. cause ive never had a thing for crowds. they scare me more than stick with me. and for that, im a person (okay, read: FEMALE) who needs a frigging lot of space than anyone would ever need. i dont like being around ppl that much. i need my personal space; my own life. one good solitary life may i put it. yarr, perhaps i do have Autism or plain Anti-Social-- deem it fit your way. but either one, it says that having to be around herds of ppl taxes the hell out of me. and im contented just being by myself, doing whatever i please. when i'd whip up some heavenly dishes and/or whatnots. and roam along the streets during wandering hours, soaking up the pleasure. now thats some fine-art living. =))

living the life of an independent girl/lady/woman suits me just fine.

hoho, so my future house. i bet my fortune on the whole of it. i WANT it to be in some seluded place; cold all year round, with rain&snow. because cooler temps work for me. (that so, i have a love-hate relationship with heat. lol) plus with all nature in awe abundance for me. and i want an indoor swimming pool just the front of my porch, so whenever i itch to swim i can jolly well jump into it with no worries whatsoever. then, comes a fitness room. whr i have all the equipment to workout. =) cause i seriously dont fancy having to go out to do exercises in gyms or pools with just any bunch of i-dont-know-who-the-hell-they-are ppl. then obviously i will decorate the whole house the way i want. if i can get a portion of my roof overlooking the sky, by which i can get to see my stars at night and the rain splatter on the roof. that will be more than just a GREAT. hmm, what else? oh, and im sure as hell be living Alone! dont disturb my peace. i cant stand to be around ppl for most of the time. (okay, strangers, and some family. lmao!) but hey, i can organize get-together sessions in my home, then we'll be partying ourselves silly-high. thats much better than going to clubs and bars really. well, in my opinion anyway. a haa!

not that i cant do living with ppl, but not so much all the time though. and i dont want all those baggages to keep me falling deep dark down. doesnt click with my character anyway. and lets just say ive got more than enough things to fend. and i dont need more to weigh my already heavy luggage down by having to worry bout any other person at all.

crazy? perhaps i really am. bottomline is: it takes all i have to keep myself sane cant you say the same? i will really make it well being a recluse so you say huh?
much as i'd want to, i cant seem to stop these feelings of emptiness that eat into my soul. and these melancholic emotions checked. now having said that much, i'll just keep my thoughts tucked away and make my hands stop typing.

143`outing tmr

so the outing tmr with 2a10 ppl is cancelled. ahahaha, i half expected it really. LMAO! but jaren's asking me to go out with liyun and her tmr. idk, i wanna go. see how it goes tmr. hahaha, they gonna sing K first, so i'll join them later if i go. wanna go shopping man. BAG!! clothes as well. hurhur. im darned as hell broke la. hey girl, i wanna go leh. haha orchard can? lmao. marina square??
and i haven gone to cut my hair YET! darned procrastinating i know. lol. im shucked as well. HAA! cause seriously i swear, sometimes i find my hair OKAY, other times i DO NOT! so what am i gonna do bout it? effing pived again. lets just see when i can get my butt out of this house, then go down to my dear hairstylist and hear her opinions. sounds do-able yea? :)

then comes my lip piercing. man, its overrated or something? i put on my nick, then all ppl come hound me asking. okay, sounds like i had it coming somehow. so oh wells, its okay anyway. now i know far east can do. and damn as hell, that could be the temptation to get me out of the house tmr. hohos=p seriously, im still contemplating a bit here. cause afterall its the lippie, so ive got to be extra religious in cleaning it and stufx. plus if it doesnt go well it spoils my image! but aiyar, heck cause ive got a devil-may-care attitude. heh

142`wide smile

see, this is the DARNED cutesy pic i was referring to. cute like anything la can.

plus im absolutely jealous she can smile soooooooo widely.

worked the weekend again. sales wasnt too bad. =) but i swear i can kill those KIMAGE ppl luh! smug ho, they knock off like Earlier than me!! wtheck, im piffed really. grrrrrr. stupid xavier. Earliest to leave somemore. lmao. CRAP!

anyway, this retardedly irritating gastric of mine has been acting up for the past 4days or so? and the whole of today i had this headache as well. grrrrr, even right up till now! making me blur or something. hahah. oh wells, nvm. i can sleep in late tmr! and next week i gonna go cut my hair. must book appointment go cut, if not im be damn sure i'd procrastinate till god knows when really. and tues might be going out with my dear 2a10 ppl. =) and dad/mum says bring us go eat the porridge-based steamboat next week too! hohos. we'll see how then.

141`rain; friends; shop; hair

heyhey. todays shopping and entertainment day! ahaa. the first part was seriously damn funny luhs can. sorry thaithai, its the rain and the bus! muaahhaahah =D shikai also BLUR la pls. (okays, to some extent me too. but its just a TINY WINY BIT) hurhur. spent like idk how much, eating and shopping and movies. then next week i still hafta go out with my current classmates. oh shucks, somebody just give me the money really. i'd be a hell lot grateful? CRAP. anyways, saw a duffel bag, green and damn huge one. but they say its okay, hmm im considering to buy it or not. i wanna go like marina square see the bags as well la! darned, i have to work the next two days! oh wells, nvm. then like that i get the money. =) okies, im still VERY MUCH IN LOVE with tee shirts and jackets. its like Standard Cheryl Love Affair Phenomenon la. whats new right? haa! new target store-- Outfitter Girl. heh, get more tops pls. lmao! and oh dont worry, FLMP still rawks my socks off forever. LALALA*
watched 'John Tucker Must Die' at night. and i polished off almost the whole box of popcorns? hoho + pepper lunch in the afternoon. and the darned sinful ice-cream which happens to be a Double Choc. make me darned full luhs. hurr, but nvm. nice time today though. outing soon again guys! love you'all many many=))

and yes, seriously i have to go cut my hair la. just do something to my crowning glory pls. or else i'd really die or scream or go insane. let me keep my sanity alright. i wanna grow it long, but it seems too high a task for me? HA-HA. shucked though. idk, rebond; dye; highlights; cut! grrrr. i better BOOK an appointment like SOON with my hairdresser. she must be thinking she's lost me this customer for good or something. l0l. but i sorta cant bear my hair? shit i really dont know what i should do with my hair at all. clues anyone? im getting way too stagnant on this one style. GRRR, i got effing pissed like eons ago? haha

KAH HUNG'S birthday today! (15sept) sweet 18th to him. hahahahaah

yes again let me just list the things i wanna get:
-red pumps
-A BAG like pretty pls!
-belts
-shades?
-Clothes....

140`life v/s us?

erh, actually not much in mind to blog about. but my guess is that it will STILL become one long entry. ha-ha

hmms, main agenda is that i have a question. 'did life screw us up; or did we screw our lives?' is thr a true answer to this qn? or will thr be endless controversial debates over whats right. my shot would be that its the latter. funny how life can be our total annihilation. so in short, i say lifes a bitch.

most people lead lives, thinking they got the worst fate. but little do they comprehend the simple logic that we tend to blow up the matter we're handling. and minimise what others are going through. so i think compared to some other people, my life's still not so bad. and im glad for it. so for everyone, a little encouragement for you:

"if you're going through hell, keep going. cause when it's dark enough, you will see the stars."

139`pissed or what?

i had wanted to blog. but seems like my memory's lost me somehow. its all such a blank i cant even function. wtheck?

so today i went out, to buy dad's season parking coupon. and i went to westmall to walk. how long did i not loiter there already huh? lols, but now all the faces i see are from bukit view sec and hillgrove sec. just whr did all DUNEARNITES die to? but guess i lost interest in westmall already. hohos. weird, all too weird. but hmm, it did feel a tad better when i was walking to and from thr. cause its windy and a bit rainy as well. so that brightened me up a little. hohos.

and tonights dinner was all frozen and instant food. lmao! pizzas, sausages, wantons. laughable really. but well. nothing much to say thr.

shiat luhs, grrrr. for some wrapped reason this dumb blogger cant load my pic. so i cant show you the cutesy pic of the girl with a darned wide smile i mentioned previously.

and just now msn was screwed as well. oh man, give me something better alrights?

hmm, i cant make out what im feeling right now. and its starting to piss me off. so, i'll just go read my book i borrowed! ha-ha. reading makes me happy. ciao~

138`latest laugh

hahaha, im like, grinning/laughing now. cause i just hung up with wei jie a moment ago. hahahah! that guy. full of CRAP i tell you. lols. he used his CAMP phone to call me luhs. dots, like i thought who it was. a haa! the nerve of him. lmao! yea, then he said he didnt call me before. like, STM can? ahahah. anyways, yups. nice time chatting anyways. take care guy! ;p

ohh, i took a pic of the bus-stop advertisement. Listerine's latest product. but ahh. im like in the midst of using my phone. so that picture would have to wait. hehx. till later i guess. then i come edit this entry and upload the pic. its darned CUTE i tell you. hahaah. wait till you see my caption for that. =)

results gonna be out soon. coming wed. like, i didnt know until chong lee told me. haa! and qing ting helped me check what time just now too! lmao. gems must choose soon also. alrights heres one warning- enrol with your friends, if not be bored to death thr!! hurhur, no joke.

shucks, im planning to like veg out in front of the tv or my comp. but darned, i still have to make a trip out to help dad buy the what parking coupon (season parking). GRRRRR, Big BOO luh.
the optical shop beside my work place is selling PUMA shades for like 50bucks! darned, i wanna get! grrr. hmms, anyone go with me to jurong east tmr? pretty pls. lalaalal~ okay im cranky, nuff said.

ohoh, bout ydae. i saw ANG KAH HUNG at my house mac thr the road. hohos. with daniel and a girl. lmao! at least his hair looks oookay ydae. lOls!
i wanna do something bout my hair! cut? no? rebond? dye+highlight? grr, i saw like 2heads with purple highlights today. shiats, im not getting purple anymore la. bummer again.

i forgot to mention. nows 11th sept. which exactly equals 9/11. i still rmb the very 9/11 night, i was in the hospital. for a drip. LMAO. 5yrs passed. not too long yet not too short a time either. but to those ppl who braved it all. you deserve our utmost respect and prayings.

137`i feel like

since the previous entry was of much grouches and rants. i have to shelve here. ahaa!

i wanna get a LIP PIERCING! i want i want i want. hahas. who knows whr has it huh? i seriously want. but well, contemplating further. but i really want! LOLS, okay that was lame-o. =P

i wanna dye my hair black! blue black? mystic black? jet black? and add HIGHLIGHTS! muahahahahah. purple highlights. that, i seriously want to.

i want SHOPPING! erhh, okays like thats a Huge Understatement.

anyways, i cleaned my room today. like, wiped the dust away of some areas. and packed my stufx into boxes and whatnots. hohos, and know what? im contemplating a swivel armchair from IKEA. like, i can own the blurddy shop la can? hehx.

a haa! why, i seem to be wanting so many things huh. but awww, i dont have any money. super shucked. alrights, sugar daddee anybody?

136`boyfriend. and tattoos?

on a sudden whim, i want a boyfriend.
Someone: who is a super fanatic photographer. who takes snapshots like nothing in seconds/minutes. who loves candid shots of everything around him. who takes pictures of me with any kind of expression on my face that very microsecond. who clicks on the button to snap me in all sorts of positions and behaviour.
now is that cool or what? hehx. oh wells, just saying though. lols, go whr find right. haahahas =}

coming to another totally different topic- tattoos are seriously getting more misused. i gather? my own thinkings only luh. but its like, come on. all i see and hear of are ppl wanting tattoos. those who seem to can carry it off, and an equal no. of people who CANT. im not being smug or anything like that here, but tattooing is an ART. not for you to show off that 'hey im cool okay. i have a TATTOO.' grrr, this whole tattooing issue is making me pissed. like i once wrote in an entry months before. call me weird or what, but the likes of having a tattoo is too cliched already! URGH!! more often than not when ppl know i have a tattoo, they go 'oh, cool!' hurr, but im having much distaste for the word Cool that goes alongside with knowing i have tattoos. having ppl say you're cool is nice, but it ISNT nice when ppl use it like thats the world's only word to say to ppl having tattoos.

see, i said. my entries always end up being so long. -sulks- next entry already pls!

135`chalet pics

ohhh, im plain lazy to update. haa! nvm, pics first:

to the HARDGAY toy which we played the night through, with much cheers and alcohol.

pool anyone?

134`im not missing you

I'm Not Missing You

Oh, Oh
Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I aint listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus]
(But) Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going becauseI got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I cant be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life

[Chorus]

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you.

133`quotes

*there is nothing i have to say, so i dont speak.
*you dont like pain, i do.
*winter is harsh
*not all those who wander are lost
*heaven is never too far
*if i dont reply you by so long, then most probably i wont. get over it.

some quotes. by others; or i came up with it. hohos..

so okay, some update. i think i should really get those pics of chalet uploaded here. hurhurs, though its only a few- of them sleeping. haa! -evil grins- nvm, that shall be later. =) hook fingers, lmao!

and yeps, now im watching the china latest version of [condor hero] aka Shen2 Diao1 Xia2 Lv3. hohos.. only at the 3rd disc. slow siala. lmao, nvm. curb the time and wastage or whatsoever shiat. lmao! weird language already! tsktsk..

I <3 JAY! okay totally random i know. but who cares? ahaa =D

132`heaven is never too far

Her hair was up in a pony tail,

her favourite dress tied with a bow

Today was Daddy's Day at school,

and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,

that she probably should stay home.

Why the kids might not understand,

if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;

she knew just what to say.

What to tell her classmates

of why he wasn't there today

But still her mother worried,

for her to face this day alone.

And that was why once again,

she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school

eager to tell them all.

About a dad she never sees

a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,

for everyone to meet.

Children squirming impatiently,

anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called

a student from the class.

To introduce their daddy,

as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,

every child turned to stare.

Each of them was searching,

a man who wasn't there

"Where's her daddy at?"

she heard a boy call out.

"She probably doesn't have one,"

another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,

she heard a daddy say,

"Looks like another deadbeat dad,

too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,

as she smiled up at her Mom.

And looked back at her teacher,

who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,

slowly she began to speak.

And out from the mouth of a child,

came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,

because he lives so far away.

But I know he wishes he could be,

since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,

I wanted you to know.

All about my daddy,

and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories

he taught me to ride my bike.

He surprised me with pink roses

and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,

and ice cream in a cone.

And though you cannot see him.

I'm not standing here alone."

"Cause my daddy's always with me,

even though we are apart

I know because he told me,

he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,

and lay across her chest.

Feeling her own heartbeat,

beneath her favourite dress.

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,

her mother stood in tears.

Proudly watching her daughter,

who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love

of a man not in her life.

Doing what was best for her,

doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,

staring straight into the crowd.

She finished with a voice so soft,

but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,

he's my shining star.

And if he could, he'd be here,

but heaven's just too far

You see he was a policeman

and died just this past year

When airplanes hit the towers

and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,

it's like he never went away."

And then she closed her eyes,

and saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,

she witnessed with surprise.

A room full of daddies and children,

all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,

who knows what they felt inside.

Perhaps for merely a second,

they saw him at her side.tears dripped.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"

to the silence she called out.

And what happened next made believers,

of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,

for each of their eyes had been closed.

But there on the desk beside her,

was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,

by the love of her shining star.

And given the gift of believing,

that heaven is never too far.

131`a tribute

ahah, seems like i didnt update, yet. oh wells, nothing much to say i guess. or seems im not in the mood to type out tonight.

cause steve irwin(the croc hunter) is dead. he got stabbed by a stingray barb. which is like, so omgosh. he's so selfless man. i guess without him, all of us wont know exactly so much bout those crocs and all. his shows in discovery made a great deal of difference. yet now he died just like that. oh man, this guy is great. sighs.. anyways, as a form of respect, we put a TURTLE icon in our MSN nicks. a tribute to this great man, who braved his life many a countless times for the world. RIP~

130`quotes save the day

sorry, this would be an interception to the previous and next entry regarding chalet. ahahaha. cause i can off my phone now, so i cant take out the MMC card to upload the pics and whatnots into my comp yet. so i'll write about some things now instead.

"the only things people can ever know about you are the ones you let them
see"

this is a nice phrase right. and i so agree with the statement. its also one of the principles i live by. thats why i only let people see what i am on the outside. they so dont know me at all. now people always think im very guai. ahahaha, okay. which is true now luhhs. super guai can. even im like thinking my life now is frigging pathetically guai (aka no life). but oh wells. i've said before. i was the one who chose to lead my life through this road, so i will blame no one. even if i were to have so many regrets whatsoever, i can only continue walking down. cause no one forced me to choose this road, and since i did. i would have to finish it myself. so, how i am, i myself know. i dont have to let others know what sort of stufx i did in the past to justify whether im a 'pai gia' or 'guai gia'. not in the past; not now; not ever. the things i feel you can know, i will tell you. if not, i wont bother if you have a misperception of me. cause tell the truth, i dont give a damn who hates me or not seriously. i had enough of this kinda shit back then. muahahaha. but oh wells, now i guess i dont have this kind of trouble already? since i dont even bother making that much friends or what. LMAO! or i just put on a mask and say im okay. anyway i really dont like people fussing over me like nothing. hahahahaha! mature? independent? idk, its just in my blood. i dont like ppl asking repeatedly if im okay. cause more or less, its just a reminder that im NOT? ahahah. okay, thats just another quote. nows serious. i think the main thing is that im more an innie (read: introvert), so i dont even like saying any tiny bit thing about me. yea, thats why i always have nothing to say. its better not saying anything at all i guess.

okays, im drifting. actually this entry is dedicated to Jaren. hey girl, everyone have their own kind of problems.. its just whether they let ppl know anot. i for one, wont let others know. and you know it best rights.. yarr, and shikai also has his fair share of problems wadd. all of us surely have some. its only that how we want people to see it. whether we let people know of it or not. so yup. and let you know that we are behind you okie.. dont be sad luhhs. and dont think you are so suay or what ba.. take it as a test. of your strength. only in times of adversity do we learn of how strong we actually are. remember this: you are braver than you seem and stronger than you think.
ahahahha. yes, QUOTES are my best friend. no, it should be they are EVERYONE'S best friend. lmao. i absolutely adore quotes. =) yesyesyes, throw you more quotes i tell you. ahahahah. okay, but seriously speaking. dont feel so down yar? one door is closed but at the very same time, another opens.

Growth demands a temporary surrender of security. but all in all, LIFE GOES ON. so why not just take everything as they come? sure, some things hurt that much. but oh wells, if you believe enough, then it will be okay. learn from your idol ger! mxl also have so much obstacles and whatnots. and yar, she also have times whereby she feel like she cant hold on. but she overcame it nonesoever. so yeaps. hehx..

bahh, i dont even know what im blabbering on for so long about already. darned! lmao. anyways, yar. just a little something i guess. to make you feel a tiny bit better at least (though like you're only gonna read till earliest come sat. lols). anyhow, cheers! =)

129`CHALET!

oh yea, im back from chalet peeps! lols. the chalet was fun man.. craving for more i tell you. hahahaha=) it was great, really. the first night was like wow. but too bad no one brought a cammie, if not we would have so many candid shots and what nots. or best still, VideoCam it!

we downed one bottle of tequila and red wine. ahahahaha. best time man. weicong shikai cheeheng, their bodies were all flushed red luhhs. lmao! desmond also. haha.. fun fun fun fun fun! and i went without sleep for like i dont know how to count. lols. but the funny thing was that everyone was asking for me to go sleep. HAA! thanks guys im alright.

and we have so many chicken wings left over. hurhur. i didnt touch one wing at all. lols. not enough hotdogs! a hahhhah. and sweet potato were nice. oh yea, jaren and i got to eat soya beancurd. muahahahah. shikai's mum bought 2tubs for him. lols, and he shared with us.

shopping for the food stuffs were frenzy. ahahahah. that what sheng siong is damn squeezy la pls. giant carrefour cold storage are much better. lols. ohhhhhh, we bought the super big bottle of NUTELLA! ahahaha. but its cleared up in the end too. mostly by MOI! =P and the bread too. i think i ate a total of like 1whole big loaf of bread already? haha. but chips werent enough! lols, we bought like 4packs. yunyun jeanie weicong cleared most. hurhur.. oh wells, i dont crave that much for them. lols.

second day consisted of slacking, which happens to be my Forte. lmao! nahh, cause they slept in till like 12pm. hohohos. then we didnt have the player to run our shows. oh wells, nvm. our class are a bunch of slackers! hehx. then we went out to eat and entertain a bit. bought jack daniels! but shucks, i didnt get to drink with the guys. haa. nvm, i drank while they were sleeping in the early morning. LOLS. on the rocks was good stufx. but seriously, not enough drinks too. sadded. hahahh.

christine lee came over too! she brought her dvd player to lend us. how sweet right? shes NICE! haha.. i like her. and tyy. they are ftw. lmao. but she didnt stay over.. she left at like 11pm to catch the last bus and train. so yups.. weicong came over too, but he left slightly earlier than christine lee. and pls la, that cow slept during the show can. Pig la. hmms.. so nice. haha!

ohh, its gonna be long. but oh yea, i'll leave the pics of some of them sleeping for the next entry. i haven uploaded to my comp right now. but it'd be soon i promise. =)