* Thursday, August 3
i shiats. im like super down now. whats wrong with me? damn. i dont like this feeling. make it go away pls. i dont want to have to bother about you no more. can i eradicate your existence? i dont know what youu are thinking about seriously. that bothers me. and i dont like that. could i forget all the feelings towards you. i really wish YOU knew how i felt most times. and i really wish I knew, what is it that runs through your head all the time. but guess ill never know, just like how you'd never know mine either.
so, come the time. when you're just another faded memory. that ill faintly rmb, or stirs up, when i think back of you. guy, i really wanna try. you could have just told me out straight, how you feel. i so miss the river, the lights, the songs, the mrt. all of it. but its also been receded to far behind of your head aint it. im tired of having to guess whats in your mind. could you just please make it known to me? show it to me, you want me to stay or not. cause im not gonna stay and wait ard like some fool you know.
sighs, i need a mood lift. badly. whrs my shan hu hai and feng mvs. =(
ahh, whatever really. im not in the mood to talk or type or think. just let me sleep it off for all the hours. i dont wanna think bout school. just let me heal a bit first. before you know it, tmr early morning. i'll be smiling wide as can be. cause you wont ever see any traces in my face. i said:
'i wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiles when her heart was broken. and the girl who could brighten your day even if she couldnt brighten up her
own.'
