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urmm, i just felt like putting my thoughts to words, like usual..

i just so wish you knew how you make me feel guy..
why's it i cant make myself stop thinking of you?
so if you'd just say what you want to do, do you want me in or out of your life? cause i cant wait forever..
if you're not saying anything, then im leaving. just dont miss me when im gone.
you could have said the things you wished, but you didnt. and let me leave.
it seems like you dont want me part of your life, but yea, why do i still care? heck, i dont even know what you're thinking exactly guy. you got me so confused. and yes, i still think of us. what its been. but so suddenly you cut the strings that tied us together, and not told me a single thing. what is it that you want? if you want me out, you can just say so, cause i so dont know a thing already. i had thought we had something that transpired between us. but it seems that i got it all mistaken. you aint into me. we never were any of that. and now we're just close to nothing.
and yea, i guess i got used to not smsing you; not talking to you online; not being that close to you; and not knowing a single thing about your life anymore. but if thats the case, why do images of what we once were still creep into my mind? why do i keep dreaming of us?
i really miss that night. those nights. those times. the times when you had me in your eye. but its vanished all so suddenly, and now im left wondering what was wrong.
guy, if you only knew. if only you knew how much im into you. IF, really.
but yea, if you're treating like im the frog and your the scorpion. then i guess its time for me to say goodbye...

wei le yi ge ren, mei ye bu xi deng. wo zhi dao deng dai bei hou shi shang hen. --ai qing lu cheng by zhang shao han. [p/s: if you guys have this song pls pls pls send me!]

bahh` whats wrong with me now? im so over us, but i still think of you of us. but yea, theres no sorrow. just ke3 xi1 maybe? i so dont know whats wrong with you guy. but if you're still not taking any action then im really leaving. no, i already did. i already cut myself off your life. its the way you want things to be now.
i dont wanna think of you. but my heart doesnt heed my control. im thinking of you way much like crazy. stab me someone. cut the pain away.
LIKE I REALLY MISS THAT DAY. CAN WE EVER HAVE A NIGHT LIKE THAT AGAIN? IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE NOW??
i cannot fathom what you are thinking of really. you got me confused.
shiat, someone pls kick away this depression. if im gonna get it again i'll scream really. aww, im feeling uber pathetic. shiet this all. but yea, give me time. by tmr i'll be alright again. just like all other times. "i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart was broken. and the girl who could brighten up your day even if she couldnt brighten her own." yes, believe me. like always, i'll be THAT girl. like air, ill rise. you could never break me. alrights, im done. =)