over the past few days i didnt have internet to use. only got it ydae night. hmms.. i feel.. i dont know. haha, anyways update..

mon26jun. school starts. hmms, alrights luhh.. tutorials all day. then one day of school just ended lidat. read: poly= no life. lmao. then i met chan tong justin benson edwin they'all. so stayed with them a while.. chan tong had driving lessons at like 5.30pm. so we went westmall to kill time. haas! that guy luhh.. seriously lame. haha, but yups. long time didnt chat with him. hoho, then after he gone, i called mum. haha she's also at westmall. lol. so i went in to meet her. hmms, oh yups, then we bought breadtalk. but they didnt have the crusty bread i wanted. lol. anyways, i bought 2tees. haha! spend money again! oh yea, so sadded la pls. my G2000 formal shirts are GONE!!! freak! my dreams of owning the formal shirts are shattered. LMAO. but yarr, real bad la can. humpfh! darned nice leh. BOO~ oh yea, my house here having pasar malam. hoho. bought like a few things thr(i mean food)=p

tues27jun. haw haw, i skipped BLAW lecture. AGAIN! shucks man. lol. i reached school like 9.35am. then dont wanna go in liaos. lol. then i stayed at the table outside the mlt. and sal came later also. so we just stayed thr till like 10+ then go in. then after QA lecture. break. that jaren..... dots luhh. lmao. she's weird. hoho. whatever nvm her. hmms, then was MR tutorial. he gave us our test papers back. like darned, i failed by 1/2 mark. wtheck!?!?! hurr, so idiotic laa pls.. anyways, yea. the way he marked sucks also lor.. must be straight on, dont allow for differences one. like wthell. haha. heck luhhs, im not going for the retest. just for the stupid 1mark. heck la pls.. anyways yea. he just went through the paper for the whole lesson. then break again. i ate bao, and fruits. and some wedges. darned full la. fma lecture, wanna doze off already. hoho. and i went home with lao ba! =) finally i saw jorene liaos. hahas. yeas, the weather darned hot lehs. =( can die one lor. haha. anyways yea. then mummy bought dinner home and of course i pigged out. heh

wed28jun. FMA tutorial cancelled today. so technically speaking we dont have to go school at all. but damn the QA retest. i still have to go. at 3pm. grrrr. i dont even know a single thing la.. go also waste my time. if not for the retest, either i slack at home or i go shopping lurr. grrr. effing stupid. nahh, im in a bad mood now. hahahas.. so dont mind my ramblings luhh. dont know why. today im feeling low. the weather? thinking of him? whichever shit, i dont wanna have them. wont somebody just eradicate his existence from my mind? idk, its like. yarr, im so over him already. i dont even feel a single thing for him now. he doesnt bother me now. but yea, maybe its just like i thought of some things now. and i dont like that. bahh, what am i talking about? i dont even know. haw haw. -shrugs- oh well whatever. i managed to kick you out, and you wont creep in. =) back to QA retest anyways. think i have to go la.. if not my grades can go die la pls. last yr i didnt fail anything. this year i failed 2tests already luhh. darned shiats pls. =( and yups, go take the retest. at least can get a pass. 50marks also good. haha. plus, if i dont go, i sure gonna get nagged at by siao by shikai luhhs. jasin also maybe. lol.

i need my coffeebean luhhs. later i go get it. haha. byes!

so, school starts tomorrow. how sad, lol. this spells the end of my super duber uber slacking days. hohos.. but anyways, its good luh.. if not seriously, everyday im just staying at home eating and gorging myself out like crazy. so not-good luhh pls.. so yea, great to induce some 'life' to me. make my no-life existence have some life. muahahahahs.. but sians, tmr first lesson must see eddie ong. bahhh~ PSCM tutorial. then even greater- QA tutorial. see ken kwan. hurr, im so sure to be gonna nagged by him like crazy for failing the test la pls.. can die can? hahahas.. and so shucks also, cause tues is the retest date for QA, but i haven touched the book a single nano-second yets. shiets huh? Lmao! oh wells, heck so much luhh.. tmr is all tutorials. for which after QA is BLAW tutorial. when we have to hand in our e-learning assignment for the article. and whereby i haven done yet. lalala~ see, how great i am? muahahahahs.. but nvm, gonna go do it laters. yea, laters. lol. and i have to get the PSCM section C for my part done. which is easy, cause i've done the outline, so that leaves me basically with typing only.

so yeps, just a note. =) i dont know to be excited for school tmr anot. lol. anyways, im off.

HOW MUCH HAVE YOU LIVED?
[x] I've eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[x] I've read a lot of books.
[] I've been on some sort of varsity team.
[x] I've run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Europe.
[x] I've watched cartoons for hours.
[x] I've tripped UP the stairs.
[] I've fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[] I've been snowboarding/skiing.
[x] I've played ping pong.
[] I've played beer pong.
[] I've swam in the ocean.
[x] I've seen fireworks.
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[] I've almost drowned
[x] I've been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[x] I've listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[] I've had stitches.
[] I've been on the honor roll.
[x-in just air-conditioned surroundings -.-''] I've had frostbite.
[x-on purpose sometimes] I've licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[x-so i say freak those projects pls] I've stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[x] I've had a job before/currently have a job.
[x] I've been ice skating.
[x] I've been rollerblading.
[] I've fallen flat on my face.
[x-dumb i know. but who doesnt?] I've tripped over my own two feet.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[x] I've played videogames for more than 6 hours straight.
[] I've passed out from being drunk.
[] I've watched the power rangers.
[] I've attended Church.
[x] I've played truth or dare.
[x] I've already had my 16th birthday.
[x] I've already had my 17th birthday.
[x] I've gained weight since one year ago.
[x] I've lost weight since one year ago.
[x] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[x] I've been in a verbal argument.
[x] I've cried in school.
[] I've played basketball on a team.
[] I've played baseball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[] I've played soccer on a team.
[] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played tennis on a team.
[] I've been on a swim/dive team.
[] I've been on a track team.
[x-i love swimming!] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[] I've bungee jumped.
[x] I've climbed a rock wall.
[x] I've lost more than $20.
[x] I've called myself an idiot.
[x] I've called someone else an idiot.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I've had pets.
[] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[] I've owned a britney spears cd.
[] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[] I've owned a backstreet boys cd.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've mooned someone.
[x] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[] I've been in the newspaper.
[] I've been on TV.
[] I've been to Hawaii.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[x] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
[] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[] I've watched "Newly weds" Nick & Jessica.
[x] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[] I've been called a geek.
[x] I've dumped someone.
[x] I've been dumped.
[] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[x] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[] I've hugged my mom within in the past 24 hrs.
[] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[x] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[x] I've written poetry.
[x] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[x] I've been tickled till I cried.
[x] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[x] I've had/have siblings.
[] I've been to a rock concert.
[x] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've been picked last in gym class.
[x] I've been picked first in gym class.
[x] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[x] I've cried in front of my friends.
[] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[] I've played Halo 2.
[] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[] I've been to Alaska.
[x] I've been to China.
[] I've been to Spain.
[] I've been to Japan.
[x-all playfully though] I've had a fight with someone on IM.
[x] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[x-i can forgive, but i never do forget] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[x] I've been forgiven.
[x]I've been in love.
[] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[x] I've cried at a chick flick.
[x] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[] I've cried at a commercial.
[x] I've told someone to fuck off.
[x] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[] I've been to a rap concert.
[] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[x] I've driven/been driven on the highway
[x] I've driven/been driven more than 40 miles in a day
[] I've been in a car accident
[x] I've been home sick.
[x] I've thrown up
[] I've puked all over someone.
[] I've been horseback riding.
[x] I've filled out more than 10 surveys.
[] I've spoken my mind in public.
[x] I've proved someone wrong.
[x] I've been proved wrong by someone.
[] I've broken a leg.
[x-thats how i still have my old ailment] I've broken an arm.
[] I've fell off a swing.
[x-its rmb those days of pri sch] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[x] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[] I've lost my backpack.
[x] I've come close to dying.
[] I've seen someone die.
[x] I've known someone who has died.
[] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[] I've done modeling.
[] I've forgot to brush my teeth some mornings.
[x] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[x] I've realised how good my life is.
[x] I've counted my blessings.
[x] I've been made fun of by classmates.
[x] I've made fun of a classmate.
[x] I've been asked on a date and said no.
[] I've asked someone on a date and been turned down.
[x] I've slapped someone in the face.
[] I've been skateboarding.
[x] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[x] I've lied to someone to their face.
[x] I've told a little white lie.
[x] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[] I've fainted.
[x] I've blacked out.
[] I've had an argument with someone about weather cheerleading is a sport or not.
[x] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[x] I've been pushed into a pool.
[] I've had/have a broken nose.
[] I've had a black eye.
[] I've lost a tooth.
[] I've chipped a tooth.
[x] I've been called an under achiever
[x] I've been called an over achiever

its like such an apt song for how and what i feel lurrs pls. hohos.. truely my emotions. enjoy!

Let Her In

Why don’t you trust her for once
You may not see it
But you feel it there
This girl sees it also
But she no longer cares
You messed with her heart
She doesn’t know what to do
So now shes always crying
And getting very confused
You tell her that you two don’t flirt
But then you change your mind
Now youre starting to say
You only flirt 90% of the time
She doesn’t know if your finally recognizing
Whats between you two
Or if you just saying that
To get her to finally leave you alone
You said it was awkward
To talk about it in front of me
Well im sorry hunny
But that’s the way its got to be
I want to know your feelings
And what gets on your nerves
I want to get close to you
But still I am scared
I know you talk to me a lot of the time
And those are about important things
But somewhere lost in time
Theres nothing about us
What we are or what well be
I always think give it time
And in time well surely see
But im getting tired of these mind games
There is no gloryIm ashamed
Of what this is doing to me
I am the one to blame
For I keep thinking about you
And how I want things to go
I wish I could tell you
But I can’t so you’ll never know
As long as in the long run
We’ll still be friends
I guess that all I can ask for
If everything won’t mend
Still something I will cherish
And ill still be close to you
Not as good as falling in love
But still it will do

my super liked song. I Swear. anyone has this song send me PLEASE! i will love you seriously. haas! theres another. but i dont know the title. sadded. i want these songs luh. 98degrees too.=)

Title:I Swear
Artist:John Michael Montgomery

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what’s weighing on your mind
But you can be sure I know my part
’cause I’ll stand beside you through the years
You’ll only cry those happy tears
And though I’ll make mistakes
I’ll never break your heart

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be thereI swear
Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be thereFor better or worse
Till death do us part
I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I’ll give you everything I can
I’ll build your dreams with these two hands
We’ll hang some memories on the wall
And when there’s silver in your hair
You won’t have to ask if I still care
’cause as time turns the page
My love won’t age at all

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be there
I swear
Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be there
I swear
Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be thereFor better or worse
Till death do us part
I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear
I swear

85`all so random

no matter what you do, im not gonna care about you. [hohos, it rhymes luhh. i randomly thought of it seconds ago. haha :p]

yea, i dont know why im like so freaking happy. but its GOOD. hehx.. feels so good. =)))) lalalala~ i wanna go shopping!! and yes, i think i should go call back all my long-time-no-contact friends and get them out. hohos.. so many luh pls. like wtheck? lmao. nvm.. try=]

lalala~ hahas.. seriously. im so at peace now. happy.
maybe because martin made me have a good laugh. haas! thanks really my DA GE. =)) dont know ehh, like haha. i feel more at ease talking to you ba.. i dont know also. haha. but nahhs, i DID NOT ignore your friend okay! dont so fierce luhhs. humpfhs. haha.. and nahh, i dont have bf. hahas.. but im not looking for one luhh. singlehood is ever-so-good for me. =P

hohos. i want to go shop. itching to shop luh pls. flmp, skirt, accessories. cds even. but so shucks, i aint got the money! sobs. hahas.. nvm. we shall see! and im gonna buy that formal shirts too! haha.

save the best for the last. hahas. good song. and yes, i know liaos. im so happy now partly also because i could receive 3 mp3 files just now. muahahahaha. great! like my beloved comp decided not to throw mindless tantrums at me and make me cant receive files? LMAO. yeah~ good comp. thats the way. hahahah send me songs now! hahaha.. -smug-

so yeps, tmr im going down to westmall. to change the clothes for mum and myself. haha. then go see the cds to buy. and library. and perhaps i'd even go coffeebean-alone. muahahahas. im great. =))

and oh yea, jasin asked me if thurs i wanna go eat international buffet. omgosh. i want! but no money. and then theres fri our class gathering at yukiyaki. damned, just when im effing broke. hurrs. so bad luh pls. but anyways given, i'd choose buffet over fried ice cream. haha.

whee~ tmr i have things to eat. hehx.. cause mummy bought my fave crust bread from breadtalk. lalala.. =) but no bo lo pao. so sadded. crystal jade lehs. lmao. nvm. next time. hahas..

lalala. maybe later i'll come edit and add more things. =)

84`another note

ermm, i dont know. just have some little thingies i wanted to post here. so heres a second entry. haha.

and yea, my friends reading this blog, pls luhh. i just wanna rant some of the things only, so basically im alright one hor. hahas! =)

come the day when you dont matter. i'll be so over you. im waiting.

oh great, like i forgot what is it i wanted to write. hahas.. apart from the line above that is.

anyways, i wanna go shopping luhs pls.. somebody give me the money and ill go! lalala~ i got my eye on two formal shirts from G2000. darned nice luh pls. hahas.. but no money. so shucks can. im seriously announcing budget deficit can. hurrs.. damn bad. sales period, no money to shop. how can!?!?!!?!?!? but nahh, im gonna buy my skirt. then see is FLMP tees more, or another skirt or something. then yea, take money from mummy to buy that topshop wallet luhh. [cause she had actually wanted to buy for me one GUESS? wallet lors. lmao] then the formal tees i buy. muahahahahahah! see, i need money pls! :p oh yea, just as bad that kor asked me help him fill his cd-rama card luhh. he best lors. lmao. bahh, i wanna buy cds also. but no money luhh. but well, gonna buy Initial D OST. and idk, rainie yang? or angela chang? or who have the two females' cd lend me PLSSSSSSSS!! lmao.

and yar, on top of that. my class is organizing a gathering. at yukiyaki. Scream: "i no money liao la!" LMAO, okay that was lame. but hehx.. see how luh, maybe i join them after lunch or something? anyway i dont wanna eat also. this holidays i've been gorging out like some effing pig. super URGH! fat liaos. muahahahhas.. but nahh, heck so much. holidays are my best resting period. =)

okies, i haven eaten yet. so im going! to eat again. -.-'' kill me someone.

squeal my byes! 2.44pm =))

83`me

shucks, im feeling low again. and i admit, listening to YOSHIKI's pieces dont help at all.

tell me how i can get you out of my mind. i dont wanna drive myself crazy. things were actually going on fine between us, until you decided you had enough, and put a stop to it all. so now am i supposed to leave your world and move on? or stay to hear what you have to say? but you arent telling me anything at all. you just shut me out of your world, you push me out from the inside. and i tell you, it hurts. but yar, no my heart isnt broken. because i haven given it to you. and you were not prepared to catch me when i fall also. so i let it leave as the way it goes now. but why are those meagre memories i had of you/us so difficult to forget? every time when i thought i was getting better, those memories suddenly become filmstrip, and flash through my mind, invading my thoughts. and my heart still feels that little something. my heart still tugs a little, when im thinking of you. when i think of ecp when i think of esplanade when i think of coffeebean when i think of starbucks. tell me how i forget about you. because it just isnt nice to have to think of us the way we once were, and suddenly everything we had transpiring between us just gone like that. and reality cut me back to square one, and im faced with knowing we can never get back to what it was before. because even if you had wished and tried to make us go back, it would never be the same again. sometimes when things are gone or lost, no matter how hard you try, it wouldnt come back to the same like before. and yes, i dont know why you're acting the way you are, but im gonna cut you out of my life, like how you did yours. so if it suddenly got to you how we once were, the little things, the places we'd gone to, sorry to say. once i leave, i dont look back. thats how i live my life by. guy, you dont know how much i wished us to be true. i also dont know why you make me feel the way i do, but guess thats something unexplainable. maybe because you're so like me. maybe because i couldnt control my heart and mind enough not to think of you. but yes, dont worry. because im that tough, when i see you face to face or even behind, you wont see any trace of it in my face. and ill be hard as ice. because what you do wont have anything to do with me anymore. and we're nothing but mere acquaintances. yes, thats how i would want us to be. so its okay. not before long, ill be alright. and maybe you'd miss me, maybe not. thats not gonna affect me anyhow. so yeps, you no longer have to say the words i need to know- stay or go. because now its me cutting you out of my life. because im so tired of having to guess whats your true feelings to me. i so dont wanna play the game. anyway, as my so-suited-for-me blogskin: "i dont know how to love, i dont wanna break my own heart." well, thats the reason i chose this rights? lmao. so yea, it sums up everything for me basically.
because i dont wanna break my own heart, so i choose not to love. anyways, i seriously dont know how. so, i guard my heart so tightly. and i close myself up. i dont let anyone get that near to me. to try and enter my heart. but maybe im so tired of everything all i want is for someone to understand all the turmoil going on inside of me. grrrr, im pissed with myself luhh. shiats! seriously i sound like some small and soft and weak girl. crying for the one who dont give a damn about me. wtheck? so yes, i will cut you out of my life. and i will stand taller than before, just you watch me. i will. because cheryl is always so strong. =))

alrights, so much so for whining rambling ranting whatsoever, im okay now! lalala~

82`shopping SPREE

hohos, i realized. i haven mentioned bout my shopping on wed. lur lur lur. super shioks i tell you. muaahahahahhas :p but yups, im screaming: "ITS NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!" so anyways, here goes:
14jun06wed. mum woke me up luhh. but yea. going shopping with her. town! hhaah, then i brought her to pepper lunch to try it out. hoo, scrumptious indeed heh. at wisma mango. wow, i still got my eyes on the wide- stitched knit woollen pullover top luh pls. darned desirable can. lmao. anyways, then we went to topshop. and i bought my accessories. just two luhh.. the golden bangle gone. haha. so i bought a big yellow one instead. and yeps, a heart brooch. white and gold. special, can pin to my plain clothings. =) and yea, i saw a leather wallet. WAS SUPER FREAKING NICE pls. hahahas.. its plain svete(sp?) leather. hmms, faint brown. nice luh pls.. damn nice laa.. piangs, its one big Splurge item can. siala.. i want that luhh pls. haha.. its those horizontal type de4.. damn cool luh. can use it as a pouch or something too. cause i think it can fit my hP in it also. haha! and oh, topman sells lollis!! muahahahha.. so great rights haas! anyways, forever21 was up next. but siala, the wooden bangles i had in mind was snatched gone. hurrs.. so bad luh they had sale for 9bucks okay. lmao. anyways, i saw a pair of real cutey earrings. its chunky luhhs. cause its like damn big. muahahahah.. but its nice la pls. bright blue with small details of translucent white. its like oval in shape, but with hole in the middle de4. hook kind. super nice really. but mum kept saying its too big. bummer, so in the end i didnt get it. haa! then yeps, i still wanted to go far east laa.. but mum say she tired already. siala. wtheck? lmao! so yea, i said alrights. heeren last stop. hurrs.. cause i want my FLMP! i already saw in wisma, but nahh, im used to going down to heeren thr. cause of the darned funny guy, and the girl. lmao! so yeps.. siala, its like usual. so crowded luhh. hurrs.. then yups, tried and bought of course. =)) stayed in thr like quite long ehh. haha. the guy wasnt working that day. but the other guy was not bad. funny also. haa. then yar, he asked me one question. like weird ehh? he asked me if im a VIP thr. hoho. do i have the 'im your VIP' face? LMAO!! =D but yeps, cool~ i bought 5tees straight. had in mind to get more de4. but well, next time lors.. SOON! and yeps, then went to get my hairbands at catus&pine. guess i saw who? sara! hoho, that girl. so long didnt see. with her dear junjie. haha. sweet couple sia. =) hmms, then its mrt home time. but nahh, cause its like 7+pm when we reached bb. so mum said we go westmall eat. hoho, i still ate ice kachang after my meal luhh. and like always, i froze. literally pls. darned freezingly cold can. hurrs.. whats news huh? =P nvm, like i enjoy torturing myself to the extreme cold. ROFL. then we decided to go Veeko take a look. its already like 9.40pm. haha. ohh, cool. mum got like idk, 6pieces of clothes. haa! and for me, i got a cropped blazer. SUPER NICE! haa! grey with golden silver linings. its like a bit cottony material. whoo, darned nice i tell you. muahahahahahs.. and yea, we stayed on till like 10.20pm? hoho. we're their last customers. and a big amount at that. lmao really. haha.. oh ya, and i forgot to say we bought from noda too. mum bought the birkies alike sandals for me. and 2 handbags. haha!

now thats what i'd call a shopping spree. a REAL one. im such a happy gal that night luh pls. whee~ =)))))

yarr, gonna go down again to shop. getting more of FLMP. and i need to buy my skirt. hahas. but i aint got the money already. so shucks pls. give me money! humpfh :p

and yea, my TOP HOT LUST ITEMS are:
TOPSHOP- svete leather wallet$49; MANGO- woollen pullover$59. siala, see, i need
freaking lots of money. who have wanna give me? hehx:p

81`soccer! and him

wow wee, england won!!!! lur lur lur.. see see see. i told bryce they will win. they will score goals in the last 10mins. and yes, it both came true. muahahahahhas.. and he said, im great. lidat say also really tio. hurrs.. im great luh pls. :p ohhh, super happy luhh.. england won! 2-0 lalalallala~

on another note. i noticed. but are those just mere coincidences? or what he's doing on purpose. for what i wonder? and yea, are those supposed to mean a thing? i dont want to get it wrong yar.. --cause its like, i changed/updated my friendster profile. the songs. added a few, blarh blarh blarh.. cause yeps. i changed to like i put the genres behind: 'sentimental/love/sad/meaningful songs'. yea.. then added 'tanning in your sunray', 'canon in d piano piece'. then i saw his msn music. like the whole night, its ALL the songs i love. like huhh? okay, cause jay songs. i know he likes them too. so thats besides it. hmms, he even played like 'ni ting de dao' like a few times on repeat ehh. and 'ge qian'. but when it got to like 'pachebels canon in d major best version'. then im like wtheck?
yar, best one was when we two played exactly the same song at the same time. thats like so freaky luhh pls. cause my iTunes just moved on to the next song which happens to be 'purest of pain'. guess what, i open my msn window. he was also playing that song! and yar, seemed like it was just nice changed to that song too. hurrs, scary... really, that one was pure coincidence i KNOW. LMAO
and yups, i also played 'shakira- hips dont lie', and there he goes, playing the song too. then hmm, makes me wonder. but seriously, it could me just me and my imagination running wild. and geez, i dont wanna be like some foolish gal, getting all vibed up cause of these absolutely nothing things. real dumb pls. haha=x but really, i cant fathom whats up in his head exactly. and yea, just like what my blogskin is about. [i dont know how to love; i dont wanna break my own heart] ive guarded my heart for like god knows how long. and maybe forever. but yea, i dont know what i want now. hes made me so confused. but anyways, i know. ill never open up. bahh, what am i thinking? more so, what is HE thinking? haha. maybe, you know. if i ever see his music putting up a 'save the best for the last', then i can start thinking more of it. hehx =p anyways, im over it. us not smsing at all, not getting to know whats up in his life, not even talking to him on msn, not going out to chill like always, not..... but yeas, when i saw those songs hes played in msn, i sorta just softened? so shucks luhh. bahh, i dont wanna think about it anyway. cause no matter what it may come, i can give it my all. haha, i know myself best ma. kekes.. so why bother about all these vexing stuffs right? im better off trouble-free alone. and yea, like my life hasnt have got enough of troubling issues. so why would i be dumb enough to go take up more issues? =)

im outta here!~

80`random

urmm, i just felt like putting my thoughts to words, like usual..

i just so wish you knew how you make me feel guy..
why's it i cant make myself stop thinking of you?
so if you'd just say what you want to do, do you want me in or out of your life? cause i cant wait forever..
if you're not saying anything, then im leaving. just dont miss me when im gone.
you could have said the things you wished, but you didnt. and let me leave.
it seems like you dont want me part of your life, but yea, why do i still care? heck, i dont even know what you're thinking exactly guy. you got me so confused. and yes, i still think of us. what its been. but so suddenly you cut the strings that tied us together, and not told me a single thing. what is it that you want? if you want me out, you can just say so, cause i so dont know a thing already. i had thought we had something that transpired between us. but it seems that i got it all mistaken. you aint into me. we never were any of that. and now we're just close to nothing.
and yea, i guess i got used to not smsing you; not talking to you online; not being that close to you; and not knowing a single thing about your life anymore. but if thats the case, why do images of what we once were still creep into my mind? why do i keep dreaming of us?
i really miss that night. those nights. those times. the times when you had me in your eye. but its vanished all so suddenly, and now im left wondering what was wrong.
guy, if you only knew. if only you knew how much im into you. IF, really.
but yea, if you're treating like im the frog and your the scorpion. then i guess its time for me to say goodbye...

wei le yi ge ren, mei ye bu xi deng. wo zhi dao deng dai bei hou shi shang hen. --ai qing lu cheng by zhang shao han. [p/s: if you guys have this song pls pls pls send me!]

bahh` whats wrong with me now? im so over us, but i still think of you of us. but yea, theres no sorrow. just ke3 xi1 maybe? i so dont know whats wrong with you guy. but if you're still not taking any action then im really leaving. no, i already did. i already cut myself off your life. its the way you want things to be now.
i dont wanna think of you. but my heart doesnt heed my control. im thinking of you way much like crazy. stab me someone. cut the pain away.
LIKE I REALLY MISS THAT DAY. CAN WE EVER HAVE A NIGHT LIKE THAT AGAIN? IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE NOW??
i cannot fathom what you are thinking of really. you got me confused.
shiat, someone pls kick away this depression. if im gonna get it again i'll scream really. aww, im feeling uber pathetic. shiet this all. but yea, give me time. by tmr i'll be alright again. just like all other times. "i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart was broken. and the girl who could brighten up your day even if she couldnt brighten her own." yes, believe me. like always, i'll be THAT girl. like air, ill rise. you could never break me. alrights, im done. =)

79`bored

haha. suddenly felt like saying writing some thoughts. but bahh, like i forgot. tsktsk`` =x

:gamine- nice word. hohos.. for me! :p
:i want a chic flip turnable phone! like the nokia 7 series de4.. or issit 8 series.. ahahas.. thats so nice luhh. got my eye on samsung E870. but have to see the actual thing first. anyways i aint got money. so sadded can. lmao!
:i wanna eat so many things. but i dont even feel like eating at all! hohos..
:i wonder up whats wrong with you.
:cause if you're not gonna say what you want, then im leaving. just dont miss me when im gone.
:save the best for the last!

tired. edit more to add on tmr. =)

78`happy disposition

so yeps, i got my happy disposition back again! =)) yeah- dont know ehh, actually i was like still not happy de4.. then by sun afternoon i was okay again. feeling great even maybe. hoho.. so yeps, im so over it already. why should i bother anyways right? hehx..

sat10jun. work. dont know why. but i missed him the whole of sat. missed like crazy. and it didnt help that the store next to mine was playing sentimental love songs the WHOLE FREAKING DAY! shucks luhh pls. make me miss him like Crazy can. ho ho. cause its all the love songs that yar, make me feel, urgh! i want him damn bad. lmao! im crazy i know. who cares right? :p that day was oh so down. haha. but nehh, i dont crack! =) but yes seriously, i confess. i missed him the whole entire day. and i bet he must be sneezing like hell! waahaahhaha~ or if someone tapped my brain/mind/heart that day, the count of him being in thr would be like-- once every few mins? hurr. so damn crazy. but yea, i know. it never was. lalala~

sun11jun. work. i didnt have any sales for the day! can die la pls.. ahahs.. then ermm, chatted with meiqi and alice as usual.. not bad. hahas.. then yarr, kimage ppl. hohos. they make my time thr a Little more easy going? LMAO. really la, seeing them ahh. like haha. still not bad. the guys. but nahh, xavier. pui! hahas.. that bugger, damn dao and act mighty high one can. dumb ass him. then urhh, the other guy not bad. lols.. two i think. hahas.. but their hair ahh, all damn BRIGHT can. like mine last time. hohos.. highlights and bleaching like MAD those kind. wahahahhaha~ but nahh, im so passe that phase already. now im so guai already. =))) rmb when i spotted those kind of hairstyle. ppl look at me like... haa! now i see them with this kind of hair i also will like, dots.. act sai mehs. hurrs.. but they working in kimage. so yea. lols.. then umm, yups. mid-afternoon lidat. the kimage girl went home liaos, she walked pass me still smile at me larr. i was like? then smile back lor. haha! and they damn early go home liao can! shiet mans, super slack one! hahas.. 7+pm close store liaos. buggers. lmao!
but night i bathe come out, aunty ross called. she say mr lim says i dont have to go for the time being, until further notice. hohos. merry christmas first. but heck luhh, that kind of job. not even what i wanted in the first place. muahahahs.. so im cool about not working thr. just that i will miss chatting with meiqi and alice quite much. haa! cause meiqi and i like quite a few things similar one. hahaha. and yes, miss looking over at the kimage ppl too. hohos. but aiyarh, heck rights? hahas! and i will be free on sats and suns. like to think i will miss being free on those days luh. LMAO! so yea, fri nights can go party!! great! :p
then msn, yea. he auto came to find me chat lehs. hurrs, but sorry ahh. im over it already. haa! but nahh, just lidat only. then yeps.. and i went to sleep at like 1++am liaos. and yes, rained almost the whole day. super cold luhh pls. haas! i wrapped my comforter ard me in front of the comp okay! and i offed one fan. and i fell alseep at my comp for a while. hoho =x tired.

today-mon12jun. supposedly going shopping at orchard with mummy. but yea, so far. then its like 12pm when i got up. muahahahha.. tired siala, so i slept till 11+am. then slacked in bed doing my hp stuffs. cause she haven come back yets. lalala~ so in the end we went to jurong point instead. but yea, the dumb sun. so hot and bright. hate it mans.. make me really damn irritated one. hurrs.. anyways, i wasnt hungry laa. but still shared chicken kebab with mum. then the so big cup of milo. make me full. but i still downed a choc waffle. but wasnt nice. and make me soo bloated. hohos, not good afterall? hehx.. ermms. yea.. go c c. then i saw weiting luhh. like finally? hahas.. getting prettier! =) then yeps.. went into charles and keith. and i bought 2pairs of shoes. heelies! muahahha.. and wedges!! more muahhaha. ;p luh luh luh. -smug- lmao. yeps, and both pairs have flower patterns. haa! like wtheck? but its nice luhh. one's turcoise and one beige.. nice laa.. hahas.. mum bought a black peep toe sandals. and reserved another design.. yeps.. then we went to the foodcourt ordered fruits. muahahah.. FRUITS! that whets my appetite luhhs.. told her liaos, should have come to this foodcourt instead of the other basement one. tsk tsk` anyways, yeps.. contented to have my fruits. lalala~ =) erhh, then went basement to buy polar sugar rolls. and bought pills for her luhh.. i actually intended to buy evening primrose oil. in the end not. haha. bought something else for her instead. so yeps.. then i bought collar tees at giordano. and bought bread from bread talk. then home sweet home. at least bought things. good. hehe. but im really darned freaking effing broke this holidays. i cant shop! thats SUPER BAD alrights.. bahh. can die luhh. hhahas.. but yeps, i wanna go town shop! and bugis. hurrs.. whrs eil? i wanna grab her and go! :p [p/s: so eil, if you read this, you know what to do. hehes.. get us going! =) muacks] oh yea, saw a puma sling bag at the wallet shop. those rugged type de4 baa.. quite alrights leh.. 59bucks. dont know wanna get it anots.. see how it goes lor.. and i saw one billabong wallet. red de4. Nice. hahas.. but i think its not a new design. but nevertheless, its still nice. hahas.. go bugis see how ba. and yea, myuk. i like their attitude luh pls. so like me. muahahahaha :p

hmms, im really over it. haa! cool. =) im happier lidat anyways. dont come bother me with those things. i dont wanna tire myself out thinking of the ifs/ do yous. get over it already. hehs. nites!

77` random

im back! lmao. hmms, nothing much to say actually.. so it'll be a quick one.

its how you want us to be- together, or not.
just tell me straight, you want me in or out of your life. then ill stay or go.
you can just take my hand and go, if i like you ill follow.
all you really have to do is just look out for the signs and catch the hint guy...
i wanna know that something, you're into me, or not.
something about you makes me wanna try.
i can get lost within you, cause time flies when we're together, and i just want more.
cause when i think of you and the things we've done, it paints a wide smile across my face..

bahh, lols.. im effing bored. when i should be chiong-ing my e learning stufx. LMAO! heck so much luhh.. tmr gonna have to work. must sleep early now. =)

76` NOT sleeping for >24hrs

hahaha. since im so bored and free now, i might as well update till this very moment. =)

wed7jun06. ermm, woke up at like 12pm then slacked around also.. then do my RWPS. but hahaha. distracting stufx also. so i did was like super slow ones. hehes.. yarr, then the internet died on me luh pls.. my comp seriously has some freaking problem okay. the usb port aint working. like i have 8slots. only 2workable. DAMN rights? muahahahas.. whatever luhh. then i used kor's pc to quickly send christine lee the report. exactly at 5pm. muahahahha! then slack liaos.. go watch tv. eat eat eat. ho hos.. mummy's staying back in the office. so i cooked maggie ramen. i stuffed myself crazy luh pls- with biscuits. ho ho hos.. then i watched Initial D. muahahahah, JAY!!!!!!!!!!! =))))))))))))))) muacks him siala. im crazy. hurrs. but sighs, he and the girl no ending. =\ lalala, whatever. but yea, i want my songs back! siala, so many songs lehs. especially tanning in your sunray and gloves 2Ali. love me. stickwitu. remember the name. blarh blarh blarh.. shucks can. then for the whole of tues night and wed night, weicong tried to send me songs. cannot. urghh!! shiets luh pls, make me super irritated larr.. then eil send cannot also. worst, is towards the end almost finishing then gone. wthell! then chong lee also cant. whats the prob mans. i think is msn fault luhh.. bugger, i kept having to sign in the whole of ydae la. pissed
yeaps, then i also forgot what i did. the whole night till now i haven shut a wink. ho hohos.. im great or what. LMAO!! oh yea, i did the RWPS prac paper for e learning. and PSCM assignment part A. and i went to post another entry for the MR forum. hoh os.. ermm, then i did my reformatting for the thingies in my comp. my pics songs. blarh blarh..

thurs(today)8jun06. justin's birthday. sweet 18 to him. hhahas.. yea, right up till now. i haven caught a wink. but im still as good as super awake. ho hos.. =) and im a happy gal today. hees.. perhaps cause its NOT sunny today! thats the way mans. sunny hot humid weathers make me super irritated and short tempered and pissed one. hees.. so yeps, nice weather. hohos.. and now its raining again. lalala~ good good. muahahaha. =] so yeaps, later gonna have to do e learning stufx again. effing bored can. so many things to do. every module have nvm. still must do like 2/3 parts for ONE module. shucks lurr. hahas.. im left with PSCM one part, FMA quiz lecture notes & tutorial(but im hecking the tutorials anyway), BLAW, QA.. still got what i have no idea. but yups, QA is easy. so its okay. then FMA i just go do the quiz first.. BLAW can wait cause its for school reopen one. haha.. yippy, after this week its time to go out shop! =)) and yes, Esplanade and ECP pls. serious la, if i had a car, i would just go out every night liaos. hohohos.

(*edit: oh yes, i forgot to mention. huiwen is copying me again luhh pls! wtfiak?!?!?!?!? siala, she come find me chat. then ask me pei her play games. then she asked me help her think of msn nick. okay fine. so i purposely put WYNN instead of WEN. cause pls luhh, have eyes to see la. wen is same as mine rights? like wtheck! she copied me put wen i also LL already lors. then yar, i told her dont put wen. cause ppl mix us together which i so dont want. then she still go change to SAME as mine! whoa, fiak la pls. i seriously DISLIKE ppl same as me one okay! grrrrr=((( yar then i say then okay she put huiwen. but yar, hello, the deco also same huh? i put [wEn] she go put [hUiWen]. pls luhh girl get your own life? stop copying me for heavens sake? you since last year copy me till now not sians meh? somemore she still say she like my nick. the [deliciouslyicyME] part. oh no! i say its copyrighted ones. lmao! but ehh really, if she takes it and put i really gan her liaos. heck so much, copying freak meh? i also not so nice to copy la pls. just because im close to shikai doesnt mean you have to copy me till that state? LMAO really. maybe im mean to say this liao, but hey. dont step on my tail luhh. im a porcupine, i can prick you hard okay! hurrs =p) nahh, so much so for ranting on it. laaa~)

anyways, updated enough liaos. hur hur.. have a great holidays my peeps! =))

75` work and e learning.

sat3jun. work work work.

sun4jun. work work work. collected my pay cheque! hahaha. but gotta have to save for some stuffs. sian diao. no money for shopping liaos. sadded luh can. hurrs..
ermm, yeas, comp was down la. sian diaos.. kor took apart then tried fixing it the whole entire night. but cant. even more sian diao. holidays i cant use PC. wtheck? then dad was like at thr kbkb. aiyah ask him shut up can. super irritating bugger. piffed luh stupid ones. keep making noise use me go sleep. dumb can.

mon5jun. kor off day. whole day tried fixing my comp also.. i had thought i have the whole house to myself. haa! sians.. then he pissed he cant fix up my comp. im having my own issues. both also machiam mood not good lidat. hahas. yarr, then cause i pek chek have to do all e learning stuffs. no comp do what sia. then mum told kor i have to rush my work. so yeaps.. he told me to use his comp. actually he asked me to use it that night. then i say nvm la.. the next day then do. hmms, but superbly, i stayed up till like ermm, 3+am too? without using the comp. wtheck rights.. i really dont know how to sleep early la. dots... hahas! played songs using my phone, then did the puzzle book, then read mags. blarh blarh blarh. hahas..

tues6jun. [screening of The Omen! i wanna watch that!] hmms.. wake up vacuum and mop. lOls.. then slacked around for like god knows how long. hahas.. then i go do the RWPS thingy. but hurrs.. didnt really pia lehs. hehx.. i chatted like siao, listened to songs in kor's iTunes. surf webbies. watch tv for the 5pm chnU show. blarh blarh blarh. kekes.. at night, kor come back then i stop liaos. siala, best rights. hehx.
then at night, kor fixed my comp alright. =))) lalala~ lurb him mans. hee.. so yeaps, got to use my comp liaos. and yes, kor bought a super big LCD screen for his comp luhh. 20.5inches. like OMGosh. lmao! so he gave me his 17inches one. which is more than good enough fer me. =) im a happy gal liaos. hees :p then yea, chat surf webby songs. kekes.. and yarr, i stayed up till like ermm 5am luhh. lmao! getting later and later. ho hos.. so not good, but holidays are lidat! =p

till the next one also. =)

74` fri happenings

fri2jun. i skipped BLAW lecture intending to study for MR. but nahh, lOls.. i almost forgot to bring the notes even okay! haha. cause i didnt extract it out from the MR notes pile laa. hehx.. then i went out late. but still stopped by westmall to buy my lemon tablets. but its not the kind i wanted. sadded luhh. then i wanted to buy biscottis for lunch, but didnt also. haha. then it started drizzling. siala. lOls.. then i still happily went to buy my MR textbook when im already late. LMAO!! heck so much luhh, hurrs. enter the class at 12.12pm. haha. then jeannie and leomund came in. then weicong last. hahahaha! he reached at like 12.30pm. when we all dismissed liaos. super comic sia. hahas.. then i went with sal to study. at fc6 usual place laas.. weicong they all tables away from us. lmao! ate the sweets like nothing la pls. hahas.. studied crap anyways. then jasin finished her gems come join us.. then 3pm FMA lecture. then straight after that is MR test liaos.. was at a classroom de4.. so yeps, hmms, still alright i guess. then last day of school lor.. piangs.. all donnoe die whr siala. so boring ones.. jaren going to watch Da Vinci Code with her gang. huiying meeting her bf. desmond, jasin and me. hahas.. i called weicong but hes tired wanna go home slp. idiot cow. so yarr, in the end we 3 go. jurong point! hahas.. desmond on la. he stay hougang go boon lay. wahahahha :p caught the 6.20pm slot for Da Vinci Code also.. bought jumbo popcorn set. go in eat eat eat. the show, hmms, not as nice as expected lehs.. but the architecture in thr can kill la pls.. super fascinating okay! hurrs.. then yups, it lasted like 2++hrs la.. desmond hungry so we went to kfc. they ate.. bout like 10pm go home liaos.. so early siala.. actually i wanted to go esplanade or marina bay to chill de4.. but haix, scared miss the last train then i sian diao liaos. haa! so i just chilled at my old haunts. the bus stop near lao ba's house de4.. and the park thr.. i chilled for 3+ hrs okay! super la can. hahas.. heng i didnt really upset until i really go take 176 go west coast luhh. hahaha.. reached home at bout 1+am. lalala~ (oh yea, at dover platform waiting for mrt go boon lay. kor called me. he was in the train opp me. directly opp only. ahahahah.. then he called me say he saw me! like so cute la my brother :)) hehes. he was going for a friend's bbq. so yeaps, my kor is cute lurr)

73` past events
sorry for not updating! siala, i like super long didnt update already la. hahas.. since last wed till now. more than one week=x omgosh. hahas.. cause i wasnt in the best of moods then, plus so many tests weighing me down. hurr. but nahh, i so alright now! =)))

wed31may. hmms, it was a super dumb day. cause we waited for 5++ hrs in vain in SB for the salvation handover thingy. and it lasted only like 20mins? sucks big time i tell you. make me super dulan can. anyways, oh yeas, kah hung is the class rep luh pls. like LMAO? hee :p then went home, cause weicong was going out with weiheng those guys.
(oh yea, cause actually i was supposed to meet him eat BK. but that dumb cow didnt even come for FMA tutorial. then dismiss they all ordered their food liaos. so weicong said he stopping at westmall eat first. erh, then i say then later we go eat again meh? he asked me i not going? then i say he want me go then i go lurr, but that cow say meet me in school. make me super blur can? hahas.. so yeaps, i owe him more things la pls! that cow, unfair luh pls. =\) and yeps, joel going to jarkata for his swimming competition. cool? haha. but he gonna miss the PSCM and MR test.

thurs1jun. i skipped gems again! can go die luhh. lmao! then i sorta prepared for my RWPS. then went to school for the test straight. hermms, yups.. weicong late for a while, that dumb cow is really beyond cure can? nahh, then after that went to study for PSCM test later in the evening. PSCM lecture cancelled due to the test. so its MR lecture at 4pm.. then erhh, straight test at Mlt8. super cold luh pls.. luckily i had brought my jacket- the purple one. hmms.. the test was still alrights la. just fill in the blanks, or true/false qns. piangs. hahas.. i finished like quite early luh.. but i waited for jasin. omgosh, she used the whole time can. shikai went off like the first in our class i think. hurrs, slightly before that i went outside. desmond outside liaos. weicong and rex were wanting to walk down the slope already luh. hahas.. then jasin sal came out, so all of us walked together.. walked past the bus stop, weicong was at there smoking luhh.. with melvin. that dumb ass, shiet him. melvin looked super shagged la. hahas.. hmms, then i was at westmall wanna walk home liaos. then mummy called me say go eat dinner. heng siala. lmao! so yeps, met her. go bengawan solo. msged weicong from i take mrt la. he said so weird, cause he was smoking thr then all of them gave him the stares. hohos, who ask him wanna smoke. idiot cow anyway. hmms, he's going town chill with melvin. hahaha.. in the end they went to cream bistro la. lOls.. whereas i was chilling at coffeebean. almost froze to become the authentic ice queen liao can. lmao! super cold luh pls.. hmms then went home watch tv eat! muahhahas. and at night i didnt touch on MR at all! like i will anyway, hurr..

leave till the next post.. otherwise super long seh. kekes..