* Friday, March 17
second entry in succession. think i wont get to sleep today.. sighs..
and thats great, i forgot what i intended to write in here! urgh!! =(
but i sure know im super depressed right now.. thats the price to pay. hurr..
oh yea.. yaa.. every time i reject someone, i will think.. most of those guys who added me in friendster or wlny or whatever where, they just wanna sian or jio me rights? like.. i seriously wont give them that much credit as to think: 'oh, they are just looking to me as plantonic friends.' and leave it at that.. sorry, but i live to not trust ppl.. heh. but of course, i wont say that of every single person whom i got to know apart from in person.. i mean, i met them through various mediums like friendster, msn, wlny, and whr i forgot.. but they really treat me like one of their friends.. showing me concern, and its i can feel they truely look to me as a friend.. and thats the kind of thing i want from the opposite sex.. is that even so difficult at all? ive known ppl like kailiang, alan, zhengyang, chao yu, wei bin, blarh and never met before, but so what? they consider me their FRIEND, thats what matters.. i can rattle just this much now.. (like they only treat me as a good friend,nothing else).and well, thats about all la.. haas.. pathetic isnt it? ive got a feeling half of the guys who wanted to know me is because they wanna start a bgr with me? oh wadever, i may just be seeing myself too highly already..
(but thanks to all who really see me as their friend.. smiles!)
oh yea.. i asked myself this freaking question over a thousand times already. "why cant men and women just be FRIENDS? nothing more.. is that really that difficult? a plantonic relationship between two sexes is really mission impossible? i dont think so you know.. but the more im exposed to moving to not believing in it already.. sighs.. oh well, i shall prove it to be plausible!! guys and girls CAN be JUST FRIENDS!! i believe in myself and believe in it. =)
hohos.. well.. i am an ICE QUEEN/PORCUPINE to start with.. lOls.. so this should already give some clue that im not easily tackled? lOls.. bahh..
see, im losing sleep over this.. sighs.. my poor skins gonna suffer again.. oh well.. ill try to sleep soon.
