* Friday, March 17
sighs.. suddenly my mood is 0/10 la.. haix.. like wtheck.. ='(( i hurt somebody's heart again.. shucks la.. thats like super bad la.. sobs.. donnoe how many times already laas.. grrr.. previously i also lidat la.. whenever i break one, i'd feel super bad.. darned.. but this is.. haix.. i dont know what to say.. but i know.. its better to tell them now rather than let it carry on.. worst then.. oh shit.. im like going crazy now laa.. =(((( bahh.. i am just guilty of everything laa.. haix.. yes, i am one great sinner.. take a stab at me.
i dont know how many times ive gone through this.. be damned already la.. =( sighs.. gonna be crazy.. its eating at me.. awww.. yarr, and this phrase is damn good for this occasion. "I turn down every guy who wants anything to do with me." yea.. super suited for now? and im like this anyway..
i dont know exactly how to put it across la.. so its just better to reject? because its safer to hurt others than let others hurt me? wadever, label me selfish or what.. yes, i am guilty of all.. im a coward.. yes.. did i ever mention im a porcupine? oh well.. nvm that..
sighs.. and eil suffers the same fate as me today.. hurr.. coincidence not wanted. lmao! hais.. super bad feeling now.. haix.. i dont even know what to say?
yaa, i wont give others a chance.. not when you are somebody i dont know.. my way of relationship is to start as friends first.. not right from the start you tell me you like me or something.. that way im sure gonna retreat; fast. so yea.. hate me all you want.. sorry if i hurt you all.. haix.. i know nothing can cure.. but i didnt mean for you to like me.. oh nvm.. really sorry that is.. =(
