hmms, i like the me best when im with my gang. eil, kai, thaithai, edwin, cihang.. even if its like jiemei, zhong wei, they'all.. also fine. cause i dont know how come. but its like a big striking diff when im not with them and when im with them.. hohos..
with them around, i dont exactly have to care so much abt like some manners or whatsoever.. i can speak how i want to; crap like nothing; sing too! ho~ just very comfortable and relaxed around them laa.. they make me feel so much at ease.. like life isnt that hard to live afterall. lOls.. technically laas.. :p [no, the main thing is that when im with them. i will automatically smile one. hah.. and its.. nice. lOls. with them im quite outspoken, jovial and all. always smiling, laughing, chating. but if im alone, ill fall so quiet altogether..]
and cause im one such a weird girl, few people can let me feel i can let my guard down. so yaa.. i miss them! ='( tell me, why do we even have to split classes huh? shit the person who said we must. hahas.. opps! =p

ho ho.. anyways, just now i msged angela asking her if that person got tell her bout our pay and such.. no.. and wtheck, the timing changed le4.. become 12pm at redhill.. she say start work immed. like grrr.. wthell.. lOls.. hmms, fated ba. hahas.. but funny to say, i dont feel pressurized now. hurrs.. they must jiayou worhs! =)
so now im left with no job offers again le4. humphf.. haha.. im contemplating whether to call my ex- agent anots.. he sure will have offers. and is factory.. which = i like. butttttt, i scared later he give me back my same factory. then merry christmas liao la! hahas.. not that i dont like my previous factory.. i LOVE in fact.. but its just... the things... are well, different. now if i were to go back, im ALONE. and the rooftop they already lock up.. so- no rooftop=no scenery; no friends; no nothing.. and to boot, i had a hard time leaving my life before now. so i dont think i will want to fall back altogether again.. no no.. i didnt even answer when ah hua called la. just the day before.. and no, i didnt go meet them.. ho hos.. but i will definitely still keep in contact with kiet laa! "p hehes.. and that tortoise.. lalala~ yaa.. others, i can say bye bye. hahas.. hmms, but come to think of it.. i wont fall back into that life le4 laa. cause he's no longer into me. so he wont i dont know. hahas.. whatever.. cause it doesnt matter. =)

ho, chatted with shikai. that busy guy. lOls. forever off to somewhere.. lOls. and he asked me THREE times i going out today la. that guy has amnesia! idiot cow.. ho hos. he said bout scv and i want back my scv la. singapore's tv programmes are like downright boring. except for some of course.. but its like at times like morning or afternoon the programmes are nothing watchable so to speak. hahas.. all those cheena old films or watever.. hell no! lOls.. i wanna watch cartoon! =] and hk drama serials.. so damned nice.. hahas.. =)

i thought of this when i was bathing the other day. ha! its about girls.. --when a girl likes a guy, she will be willing to do (most) things for him. when a girl loves a guy, she will willingly go everything for the one she loves. when a girl is stuck into a guy, she wont ever leave him. if the guy she loves doesnt love her and loves another, even if it breaks her heart so, she will try means and ways to help him get the one he loves. because his happiness is all that matters. if a girl decides to be with the guy she love, nothing will deter her or undermine her determination. if she still loves that him, she will never give up hope. but once a girl gives up hope, she will never ever look back. cause her heart is dead now....
haas. true? well, i know. hahas.. ive been thr too. and i live by my principles.. so many in fact. lOls.. for one- the things i choose to do or whatsoever, i will never regret. and even if things were to go wrong, i will never retreat or backstep, cause i chose this road with my own accord. i will never blame others.. so which ever way this road will lead me to, i will finish it till the end no matter what...

one of my principles, and my thoughts. its all randomly conjured, so dont mind the grammar, vocab, and the flow. hurrs.. im off!